Always look at the bright side of life....

Bismillah....

Last Thursday I broke my fast with habib and the in-laws. Alhamdulillah, we had a nice time chatting with each other and we even discussed about future plans. Things are still a bit on the grey side right now but insha'Allah we hope we'll progress towards greener pastures! Whatever it is, I pray for the best for all of us and hope everything works out fine bi iznillah!

Just now, me and habib enquired about something which I've always desired for. Alhamdulillah, so far the offer sounds good. I just pray that we can get it and start planning. Let's just wait for tomorrow. Hmmm....

Went for Mendaki at madrasah this morning. Read an article dedicated to me by one of my ex-students on the noticeboard. She even had a picture of me there. Thank God i don't look that bad in that photo. hahaha. It's supposed to be a dedication to a teacher who managed to touch your heart. ha ha.... She wrote great lies about me...haha...or so i think coz really, she sugarcoated her words - in my opinion- to make me sound far better than i really am. Nevertheless, it's still a booster for me and words of gratitude from my students just give me the drive to do more for them. it's such a shame that i couldn't recall who she was when she called me last week. all the while i thought she was somebody else. thank God i read that article jus now and saw her face. if not, i wld still have mistaken her identity. :(

besides her, i had another student who dedicated a message to me in Berita Harian on teachers' day. I was so shocked to see that message coz really, i taught her for only 3 months and i've left the madrasah for almost 6 mths and have not had that many contacts with my form class eversince. furthermore, it's not like i was ever close to this particular girl who dedicated the message to me. we don't even msg each other prior to this. now she's making me go all teary.

life is indeed strange. i never thought i made such an impact on some students' lives coz we were never close to begin with and being a teacher, it's difficult to get close to each and every student. as hard as you try, u'll still find yourself being closer to some but not all. those two who dedicated messages to me publicly are amongst those whom i've never been that close to. hence, when they dedicated a message to me, i felt really touched. and it makes me realise that being a teacher is indeed a noble job coz u touch pple's lives unknowingly. i pray that i am able to touch more students' lives in future, be it knowingly or unknowlingly. Ameen.

since i'm on the topic of student-teacher relationship, i just want to talk about this favourite student of mine. Apparently she's a daughter of an ex-JI member in Singapore. i just want to say that i just love observing her. really. i always tell habib tat she fits the bill of an ideal muslimah. she should just be on the cover page of that book man. each time i observe her mannerism, i feel more and more ashamed of myself coz really, at 15, she has better adab than me who has entered adulthood already. though i really pray that i change for the better, i can't help feeling that some things have to be nurtured since young. when you try to change as you get older, u just start feeling fake. of coz this is debatable. but i'm not in the mood to counter-argue my own contention. i've had a chat with her mom before. she's a niqabi and surprisingly, all niqabis that i've seen seem to play the role of a mother well. if she's an ideal muslimah, her mom sounds like an ideal muslim mother. haha...very contradictory. whateva..

whatever it is...i've said enough for tonight. don't feel like elaborating more. nie has been tiring but not stressful and it's still manageable. and thankfully, it's fun. partly coz i love what i'm learning coz there's a purpose to it for me and partly also because i love my classmates. all of them. we always have a good time laughing during lessons. thus, despite the heavy workload, i still look forward to going to school. hopefully i look forward to practicumm too!! heh..