My To-Do List

For Raya:

• Withdraw $$ to give to the elderly and young kids. - by 28/9
• Alter that purple jubah and buy a tudung to match it. - by 3/10

For School:

• Poetry Package -by 28/9
• Lit Presentation's Speech - by 28/9
• QCE520 essay - by 2/10
• Comm Skills Podcast - by 29/9
• Do readings before project meeting - by 29/9
• preparation for ICT project meeting - by 30/10

For Wedding:

• Pay deposit to henna lady. by 29/9
• Buy wedding gifts - by 15/11
• Buy cupboard. - by 15/11
• Buy some stuff. -by 15/11

Okay...It's not that i've nothing better to do. I just refuse to start on my essay. Bluek.....

Habib's Birthday Celebration.

Bismillah...

Last Thursday was habib's birthday and silly Me actually had a surprise planned out for him but silly Me just don't know how to keep it a surprise and so, the 'surprise' was discovered by him even before i could surprise him... sigh...

Our phone conversation that morning:

Habib: Assalamualaikum
Me: W'salam
Habib: So what are your plans for today?
Me: I've presentation later and i'm stressed about it. Aft sch i've to go home n do my assignments which are due tomorrow. I've 2 project meetings tomorrow n i've to prepare for them. (then i continued rattling about how stressed i am)
Habib: Ooo...okay...
Me: Yah...ok then... can't talk to you much. Bye.
By the way, Happy Birthday! So sorry i can't celebrate with u this yr.
Habib: It's ok...It's not important. (Haha..pls don't give me that. i know u expect smthg from me)

(i chuckled to myself aft the whole conversation.)

That evening around 4, another phone conversation:

Me: What time do you finish work?
Habib: Around 5.
Me: Ok...can u accompany me to tekka coz i need to buy muruku. My family wants me to buy muruku for raya. (haha..lame reason but i really couldn't think of anything better.)
Habib: Ok can. So does that mean u're breaking fast with me?
Me: Oh no..i can't. i've to go home after that coz i've assignments to do.
Habib: Okay...

About 30mins later, he called,

Habib: I don't think i can follow u today. We go some other day lah...
Me: No...cannot. Must buy today. My mom wants it by today coz she doesn't like last-minute stuff. Tekka will be packed during the weekends.
Habib: Then we go tomorrow lah (Friday)
Me: Cannot....i'm not free tomorrow.
Habib: Why your family suddenly want to buy muruku?
Me: My family buys muruku every year what...
Habib: Ok...raya's in 1 wk's time. You still have time to buy what... Buy some other day lah...I can't go with u today.
Me: Cannot! Must buy today!!
Habib: I smell something fishy.
Me: Nothing's fishy except for you. Ok gtg... Bye! Meet me later at 6 plus k...

Later at 5 plus, my future sister-in-law called,

SIL: Did majnu call you?
Me: Ya...y?
SIL: He suddenly called me to ask me whether me n hubby will be going to Tekka later.
I had to say yes coz now is Ramadhan what...I don't want to lie.
Me: Then what did he say?
SIL: He said, ooo....i knew it. i sense something fishy. i know she's up to something. You all will be breaking fast with me right?
Me: Huh? Serious? How come he knows? Why did he call u in the first place? We never ever celebrated his birthday together before what... How did he suspect?
SIL: I also dunno. He suddenly called me. I tell you this always happens. Everytime I want to surprise my husband on his birthday but somehow he'll always end up knowing.
Me: Arrgghh.... not fun! I know by now he knows that I'll be celebrating his birthday with him but I didn't expect him to even know that you guys are coming. I didn't even mention your name.

See...there goes my 'surprise'. Pffftttt........

Nonetheless, we still had a pleasant celebration for him n my future SIL and her hubby bought for him a shirt. I, on the otherhand, shall not reveal what I bought for him. Shhh....

Hate Presentation

Am preparing for my presentation later. Arrggh.....hate it!! Oh Allah, please help me go through this!!

Baking Day

Bismillah....





Was supposed to visit Fari and her baby - Toybah (just love the name) -yesterday but while i was on my way to her place from school, my mom called and started complaining that no one is helping her to bake cookies... okok mom, i got the drift...





so i went home and baked biskut M&M. initially it was supposed to be 'help her bake the cookies' but it ended up jus me doing everything by myself. my mom just helped to put the cookies into the jar. but i'm totally fine with that coz baking cookies is fun! hassle-free, easy-to-do and a good way for de-stressing oneself. After baking, I fell flat on the floor and dozed off... Now, i'm overwhelmed by the innumerable assignments that i have to do by today if i want my weekends free.





Must do it! Must do it!!

Final Product!

Before Baking in the oven.

Okay...I should really stop digressing and go back to doing my assingments. Must complete all by today!!

My very first *********

Bismillah....



Alhamdulillah, today me and habib bought our very 1st @#$%^&*() together. It's so exciting!! If not for the crowd of people around me, i would have jumped there and then. haha... but too bad i couldn't lah.... so i just danced like a telletubby with that in my hands!! ok...whatever i did sounds worst than jumping. haha.. whatever lah... i jus couldn't control my happiness. I'm not ready to reveal what it is yet. Wait till it's really confirmed. Whatever it is, I just hope we made the right choice! Yippeeee!!!

A bad day.

Bismillah...

It was a horrible day for me today. Woke up to a bad cramps. Had to wash my clothes. The bad cramps definitely did not help to make my workload any easier. After taking my pills and lying down to rest, i finally mustered all energy to get up and get out of house. I had to coz today's the exhibition and i didn't want to miss it. Alas, a series of bad incidents ensued from then on.

1st bad incident: got the place wrong. thought it was at expo but it turned out to be at suntec.
haha
2nd bad incident: didn't know that it's at the convention hall. *bang my head on the wall*
so me and habib cirumbulated the place like fools. habib simply followed coz
he didn't know anything about it and i dragged him into this.
3rd bad incident: after what seems like an endless search, we found the place. after a short
enquiry, we found it a bit pricey. much higher than the price that was quoted
to us yesterday.
4th bad incident: went to mustafa to look for cloth for his vest. bad idea. it's sunday! who in the
world goes there on a sunday! so we left hurriedly.
5th bad incident: went to beach road for buka. hate that place. infested by malays. not being
racist here. but really, looking at those people there, you jus don't feel
comfortable being surrounded by them.
6th bad incident: habib ordered something which he didn't like. i was already grumpy by then
coz the day was tiring for me and fatigue can make me go bonkers. habib
started becoming grumpy too. so we both ended up rolling eyes at each other.
haha. really funny for a passer-by to look at us.
7th bad incident: came home and i realised that i've assignments to do. assignments which i
refused to touch the past few days.

tomorrow, i've sch from 8.30- 5.15.

can i take mc?

i just need a break. the past 3 days weren't enough.

tired. sleepy. not in the mood to think. how to do assignment?

Amanat -The Sacred Trust

Always look at the bright side of life....

Bismillah....

Last Thursday I broke my fast with habib and the in-laws. Alhamdulillah, we had a nice time chatting with each other and we even discussed about future plans. Things are still a bit on the grey side right now but insha'Allah we hope we'll progress towards greener pastures! Whatever it is, I pray for the best for all of us and hope everything works out fine bi iznillah!

Just now, me and habib enquired about something which I've always desired for. Alhamdulillah, so far the offer sounds good. I just pray that we can get it and start planning. Let's just wait for tomorrow. Hmmm....

Went for Mendaki at madrasah this morning. Read an article dedicated to me by one of my ex-students on the noticeboard. She even had a picture of me there. Thank God i don't look that bad in that photo. hahaha. It's supposed to be a dedication to a teacher who managed to touch your heart. ha ha.... She wrote great lies about me...haha...or so i think coz really, she sugarcoated her words - in my opinion- to make me sound far better than i really am. Nevertheless, it's still a booster for me and words of gratitude from my students just give me the drive to do more for them. it's such a shame that i couldn't recall who she was when she called me last week. all the while i thought she was somebody else. thank God i read that article jus now and saw her face. if not, i wld still have mistaken her identity. :(

besides her, i had another student who dedicated a message to me in Berita Harian on teachers' day. I was so shocked to see that message coz really, i taught her for only 3 months and i've left the madrasah for almost 6 mths and have not had that many contacts with my form class eversince. furthermore, it's not like i was ever close to this particular girl who dedicated the message to me. we don't even msg each other prior to this. now she's making me go all teary.

life is indeed strange. i never thought i made such an impact on some students' lives coz we were never close to begin with and being a teacher, it's difficult to get close to each and every student. as hard as you try, u'll still find yourself being closer to some but not all. those two who dedicated messages to me publicly are amongst those whom i've never been that close to. hence, when they dedicated a message to me, i felt really touched. and it makes me realise that being a teacher is indeed a noble job coz u touch pple's lives unknowingly. i pray that i am able to touch more students' lives in future, be it knowingly or unknowlingly. Ameen.

since i'm on the topic of student-teacher relationship, i just want to talk about this favourite student of mine. Apparently she's a daughter of an ex-JI member in Singapore. i just want to say that i just love observing her. really. i always tell habib tat she fits the bill of an ideal muslimah. she should just be on the cover page of that book man. each time i observe her mannerism, i feel more and more ashamed of myself coz really, at 15, she has better adab than me who has entered adulthood already. though i really pray that i change for the better, i can't help feeling that some things have to be nurtured since young. when you try to change as you get older, u just start feeling fake. of coz this is debatable. but i'm not in the mood to counter-argue my own contention. i've had a chat with her mom before. she's a niqabi and surprisingly, all niqabis that i've seen seem to play the role of a mother well. if she's an ideal muslimah, her mom sounds like an ideal muslim mother. haha...very contradictory. whateva..

whatever it is...i've said enough for tonight. don't feel like elaborating more. nie has been tiring but not stressful and it's still manageable. and thankfully, it's fun. partly coz i love what i'm learning coz there's a purpose to it for me and partly also because i love my classmates. all of them. we always have a good time laughing during lessons. thus, despite the heavy workload, i still look forward to going to school. hopefully i look forward to practicumm too!! heh..